The last month has been absolutely ridiculous for my health and it is still going downhill! If one more thing happens in the next few days I am going to literally loose it!!
First, it all started with a simple sinus infection on November 8th. I got better about 2 days after waking up feeling like crap thanks to the medication my doctor gave me.
Second, thanks to the Singular I was given I woke up a few days after starting it with a rash in random places. That was on November 15th. Naturally I took Benadryl and called the doctor. What looks like a normal rash for most people can be a fatal rash for me. I have an autoimmune disorder called Steven-Johnson's Syndrome. It causes reactions to mostly penicillin's and sulfa drugs but I am an unique case. My immune system is so suppressed and my skin so sensitive anything can set it off. The rash can take hours to days to fully appear. It dries out my organs, and mucus membranes in my entire body. When my skin starts to blister or I develop blisters in my mouth it is when I become more likely to die. My skin then begins to slough off and I would need to be put into the burn unit or ICU. Anyways, back to this reaction, I took the Benadryl for 24 hours and then the next day it had spread so I immediately went to the ER on November 16th. I was given 3 IV meds to try to clear the rash up. If this didn't work then we would know if I was in a full blown reaction. Thankfully, the reaction was caught in time and the medication slowly but surely made the rash go away. See I have been down the road of having a severe reaction and nearly died when my lungs dried out and blood pressure dropped to 45/23. When I break out now I take action because I don't know if I am going to die or not. So if you ever see me panic over what looks like a small rash this is why. I will be going to an Allergy and Immune Specialist, and Infectious Disease sometime in the near future to pretty much figure out what is going on and to be a lab rat!
Third, on November 30th I woke up feeling fine. I had breakfast which was 2 pieces of toast and a cup of greek yogurt. After I ate I felt queasy but nothing I couldn't handle. I then went to my Pre-Op for my Laparoscopy and Hysterasalpinogram. Everything was dandy until I got in the car to leave. I felt like I was going to vomit everywhere. Luckily, I didn't get sick until I got home. For the next 4 hours I vomited 9 times. I was so exhausted, weak, and dehydrated I knew I needed help. I couldn't hold anything and I mean anything down! My fever wasn't to terrible at this point. With the advice of a close friend I decided I needed to go the the health center in town to get fluids. My good friend took me to the center. By this point I had no real fever, and they gave me a tablet of Zofran. They decided I needed an IV which wasn't rocket science. I looked like death literally. I was so dehydrated my veins were collapsed and they had to use a newbown IV cath on me. Even that took 10 minutes to put in. After hours of getting fluids I started feeling better. Finally, for the first time in 10 hours I was able to pee. It was great lol. I finally was discharged and went to my merry way with being diagnosed with a stomach virus. I still don't the greatest now but I sure as hell feel better than I did on Friday.
Fourth, yesterday started like a normal day with a follow up appointment for the stomach virus. Well, we weren't trying last month because of the fact I am having the surgery and the uterine x-ray. I started spotting yesterday morning before my appointment and was like this is odd, my period is a week away. So naturally I got all excited because it could have been implantation bleeding. I went to the doctor and we talked about the stomach bug and the spotting. So we did a BHCG, and a thyroid test for Hashimotos Thyroiditis. I was thinking of how wonderful it would be to be pregnant and I could cancel surgery and all of that jazz! Results came in a few hours later..... I am NOT pregnant, my period started a week early which is unusual and we don't know why it happened. Thankfully I don't have Hashimotos Thyroiditis!!! I called my OBGYN to tell him my period started!
Fifth, I may have to cancel surgery because of my period starting a week early. I can't be bleeding with a medium or heavy flow and have the Hysterosalpinogram done. Since I am allergic to the IVP dye they use when not performing surgery the doctor wants to so them at the same time so he can use none iodine dye. I am PISSED!!!! My mother is on here way up here right now to take me to surgery and take care of me after and we won't know until tomorrow night rather or not I am having surgery Friday morning. How the hell am I supposed to know what my uterus is going to do Thursday night or Friday morning. I have no control over it obviously. I am so frustrated I could shoot Bambi!
Anyways, I may or may not have the surgery Friday. Please pray that my lovely period plays nice and allows me to have it on Friday. I am in a lot of pain and don't think I can wait much longer to have stuff removed and burnt off.
Until next time my friends...........
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Doctor Appointment and Surgery Plans
So yesterday I went to the doctor. I had to make a few decisions. We decided that while the Clomid and hCG shot stimulated me to ovulate I was only producing only one viable follicle. So we decided that I would eventually start doing FSH shots. These shots are a lot more aggressive and harsh on me that the other medicines I've been taking so I'd have to be closely monitored. I'd also have to give myself these shots when I needed them once I started the cycle.
With all the medications I have been stimulated obviously and can cause my Endometriosis to spread. Since I have new pain in my abdominal and pelvic area there is a chance that it has spread to more than one location. :( :( :(
I was given the options of doing a Hysterosalpingography or a Hysteroscopy. I would benefit from both procedures regardless of which one I decide to do. The doctor and I decided to do one of these options so we don't keep getting negative results, also so we don't keep wasting our money and time.
The Hysterosalpingography would be somewhat painful and a dye would be injected into my uterus and a special x-ray would be taken. This would be done to see if my only tube is blocked and to see if I had any abnormalities within the uterus and tube. This will not determine if my Endometriosis has spread or not. While I'd benefit from this I am also highly allergic to the dye used and it could cause serious health issues. If I had an allergic reaction to it my throat could close up or it would make my Steven-Johnson's Syndrome flare up. Either one of those is terrifying to think about. Even with this done I could have to have a Laparoscopy within a year or so to see what is going on in there.
The Hysteroscopy would actually be a Hysterosalpingography and a Laparoscopy that would be done at the same time. With this Hysterosalpingograpy they could use a special dye that I am not allergic to. For whatever reason they can only use this dye via an Hysteroscopy. So, there is no risk that I will have an allergic reaction to it. The Laparoscopy part would remove any new endometrial growths, adhesions, fibroids, or polyps that are found. If my right ovary is diseased my doctor will do everything he can to save it. Even it means that part of it needs to come out. If an part of the ovary is removed it will still be functional after a good bit of recovery.
After weighing the benefits of both and making that hard personal decision I have decided I'll d the Hysteroscopy. It stinks to have to be put under and my stomach cut open in multiple 10mm sections it will be worth it. I'd rather have this done and do both then have to do separate procedures months apart. Not to mention that I'm not allergic to the dye they would use for this procedure. That will be one less thing I have to think about.
So within the next 4 weeks I will be going under the knife and will have a few more answers. Please keep me and my family in your thoughts and prayers. This isn't an easy road, but I'm thankful that most of my family and friends are supportive and understand that this needs to be done.
Until next time...
With all the medications I have been stimulated obviously and can cause my Endometriosis to spread. Since I have new pain in my abdominal and pelvic area there is a chance that it has spread to more than one location. :( :( :(
I was given the options of doing a Hysterosalpingography or a Hysteroscopy. I would benefit from both procedures regardless of which one I decide to do. The doctor and I decided to do one of these options so we don't keep getting negative results, also so we don't keep wasting our money and time.
The Hysterosalpingography would be somewhat painful and a dye would be injected into my uterus and a special x-ray would be taken. This would be done to see if my only tube is blocked and to see if I had any abnormalities within the uterus and tube. This will not determine if my Endometriosis has spread or not. While I'd benefit from this I am also highly allergic to the dye used and it could cause serious health issues. If I had an allergic reaction to it my throat could close up or it would make my Steven-Johnson's Syndrome flare up. Either one of those is terrifying to think about. Even with this done I could have to have a Laparoscopy within a year or so to see what is going on in there.
The Hysteroscopy would actually be a Hysterosalpingography and a Laparoscopy that would be done at the same time. With this Hysterosalpingograpy they could use a special dye that I am not allergic to. For whatever reason they can only use this dye via an Hysteroscopy. So, there is no risk that I will have an allergic reaction to it. The Laparoscopy part would remove any new endometrial growths, adhesions, fibroids, or polyps that are found. If my right ovary is diseased my doctor will do everything he can to save it. Even it means that part of it needs to come out. If an part of the ovary is removed it will still be functional after a good bit of recovery.
After weighing the benefits of both and making that hard personal decision I have decided I'll d the Hysteroscopy. It stinks to have to be put under and my stomach cut open in multiple 10mm sections it will be worth it. I'd rather have this done and do both then have to do separate procedures months apart. Not to mention that I'm not allergic to the dye they would use for this procedure. That will be one less thing I have to think about.
So within the next 4 weeks I will be going under the knife and will have a few more answers. Please keep me and my family in your thoughts and prayers. This isn't an easy road, but I'm thankful that most of my family and friends are supportive and understand that this needs to be done.
Until next time...
Cycle 3
Cycle 3 started while I was in Indiana. My period was not normal and neither was my PMS. The first cycle was like a improved normal period for me with PMS. Normal use to be periods longer than 7 days, very painful, a lot of clotting, and very heavy bleeding. So, I will say that from that aspect it has changed in a positive way. Maybe with all the stress, anxiety, and emotions I was dealing with my body went crazy and didn't play nice.
Since, I was in Indiana I wasn't able to get my Clomid or hCG shot. We figured we would see what happened after taking ovulation test ans go form there. I tested between cycle days 9-17 for an LH surge to indicate Ovulation was about to occur. All I got was a bunch of negative test. I took between 1-2 tests a day to make sure I wasn't misreading them. Guess what??!? I wasn't misreading them :(
What a bummer! It is hard enough knowing that I am the reason why this is not working but to keep hearing that it hasn't worked and that I don't ovulate on my own blows!! I am frustrated and the more time that passes I get discouraged.
I went to the doctor yesterday and my next post will be all about that. It is worthy of it's own post. It should be up in a few hours.
Until then......
Since, I was in Indiana I wasn't able to get my Clomid or hCG shot. We figured we would see what happened after taking ovulation test ans go form there. I tested between cycle days 9-17 for an LH surge to indicate Ovulation was about to occur. All I got was a bunch of negative test. I took between 1-2 tests a day to make sure I wasn't misreading them. Guess what??!? I wasn't misreading them :(
What a bummer! It is hard enough knowing that I am the reason why this is not working but to keep hearing that it hasn't worked and that I don't ovulate on my own blows!! I am frustrated and the more time that passes I get discouraged.
I went to the doctor yesterday and my next post will be all about that. It is worthy of it's own post. It should be up in a few hours.
Until then......
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Cycle 2 Failure
On October 14th I went and had blood drawn at 8:00 am. I was getting on a plane a few hours later to fly all the way across the country. On the way to the airport my doctor called me with my results. My IUI was unsuccessful and I was not pregnant. My heart once again sank. Right after that phone call I started having cramps. Hours later on the plane my period started. Talk about bad timing.
This cycle in general was very odd. I had no PMS symptoms until after that phone call. This is so unusual for me since PMS usually starts 1 week and a half before my period starts. I had nothing. Over the next few days all I did was spot which is also unusual. I took a test just because I wanted to see the negative for myself. It was devastating to see again.
I called my doctor to see when I should start testing for a LH surge for cycle 3. I did and the next blog will share that experience and whats to come.
For those that are interested in how my trip to Washington was it was good but cut short. I got there on Thursday night and left Sunday morning. My father in law is sick and I went to Indiana too be with my husband and his family.
The stress from both this cycle and my father in law being sick I'm sure wasn't going to help cycle 3.
Until next time....
This cycle in general was very odd. I had no PMS symptoms until after that phone call. This is so unusual for me since PMS usually starts 1 week and a half before my period starts. I had nothing. Over the next few days all I did was spot which is also unusual. I took a test just because I wanted to see the negative for myself. It was devastating to see again.
I called my doctor to see when I should start testing for a LH surge for cycle 3. I did and the next blog will share that experience and whats to come.
For those that are interested in how my trip to Washington was it was good but cut short. I got there on Thursday night and left Sunday morning. My father in law is sick and I went to Indiana too be with my husband and his family.
The stress from both this cycle and my father in law being sick I'm sure wasn't going to help cycle 3.
Until next time....
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Second Cycle Started
So this month is our second cycle. We weren't going to do this cycle at first since I didn't start taking Clomid until day 5 of my cycle. It didn't help that I told the doctor the wrong day that I started my period. Thankfully, it was only a day difference and didn't mess everything up :-) When I went in on the 26th for my ultrasound and possible hCG trigger shot my heart grew heavy. Since I have a severe reroverted uterus they weren't able to find a follicle that was biger than 10mm. he doctor's face turned white and he gave me that look of ummm this isn't working. About 8 minutes into the ultrasound and pushing on my abdomen out of nowhere this giant follicle appeared on the screen. It was sitting directly behind my uterus. It was a perfect follicle at 21.9mm. I wanted to cry tears of joy! So, after the ultrasound we talked about our options and about the hCG shot. We decided that I'd get the hCG trigger shot and figure out what we wanted to do.
On Friday, I had an IUI. Let me tell you it was no more painful than a pap smear until my cervix wouldn't open. He had to use a special tool to open it and it hurt worse than all 6 of my tattoos put together. The nurse grabbed my hands that were on my chest so I wouldn't flinch. Talk about cramps from HELL!!! It felt like my uterus had exploded and was on fire. However, that is normal for when your cervix is opened manually and not naturally. Since I by passed almost all of reproductive organs and the specimen was injected at the opening of my only tube the fastest swimmers arrived within minutes! It's crazy to think about.
I will find out in 9 days if this cycle worked. I really hope that it does. I have let my excited emotions take over at the thought that I could be pregnant right now! If this cycle doesn't work than we still have time to figure out what we want to do. We still have options which is nice.
Due to the hormones and the insemination the chances of getting pregnant is 3 times higher than average! So, there's a 60% chance it will work. I'd have to say those are good odds. I know that it may not take but I am very confident that it did. Obviously, if it didn't I will be sad but we WILL move forward!
Today my doctor called with my results of my blood work to make sure I ovulated! Guess What?!?!? I did and there was no doubt about it. I ovulated the day of the procedure :) I have been taking dip stick pregnancy test to watch the test line fade to a negative to insure if I take a test that the hCG shot is out my system. It should be out of my system in a day or two hopefully. Even if it isn't if the test line starts getting darker then it should be a true positive test result. We will know for sure via blood work.
Until next time my friends......keep your fingers crossed :-)
On Friday, I had an IUI. Let me tell you it was no more painful than a pap smear until my cervix wouldn't open. He had to use a special tool to open it and it hurt worse than all 6 of my tattoos put together. The nurse grabbed my hands that were on my chest so I wouldn't flinch. Talk about cramps from HELL!!! It felt like my uterus had exploded and was on fire. However, that is normal for when your cervix is opened manually and not naturally. Since I by passed almost all of reproductive organs and the specimen was injected at the opening of my only tube the fastest swimmers arrived within minutes! It's crazy to think about.
I will find out in 9 days if this cycle worked. I really hope that it does. I have let my excited emotions take over at the thought that I could be pregnant right now! If this cycle doesn't work than we still have time to figure out what we want to do. We still have options which is nice.
Due to the hormones and the insemination the chances of getting pregnant is 3 times higher than average! So, there's a 60% chance it will work. I'd have to say those are good odds. I know that it may not take but I am very confident that it did. Obviously, if it didn't I will be sad but we WILL move forward!
Today my doctor called with my results of my blood work to make sure I ovulated! Guess What?!?!? I did and there was no doubt about it. I ovulated the day of the procedure :) I have been taking dip stick pregnancy test to watch the test line fade to a negative to insure if I take a test that the hCG shot is out my system. It should be out of my system in a day or two hopefully. Even if it isn't if the test line starts getting darker then it should be a true positive test result. We will know for sure via blood work.
Until next time my friends......keep your fingers crossed :-)
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
First Cycle
So, I was supposed to get my bloodwork done this Friday. Thanks to severe cramps, nausea, and dizziness I got it done on Monday. There was concern that a cyst ruptured and that I could of been bleeding into my abdomen. Thankfully I have no cyst so that wasn't the problem. :)
This cycle did not work. I am NOT pregnant. Of course I am devastated and filled with many different emotions. However I know that eventually it will happen. Looks like we have more figuring out to do. Thankfully we still have options left. One way or another we will have a family at some point in the future.
I have to go back to my OBGYN to discuss my next cycle and make a plan. Trying is definitely the hardest part. I know I didn't do anything wrong that made the cycle not take, but I still feel responsible some what. It's been a long road and I know we have a long road ahead of us.
I am so thankful that I have a wonderful doctor that doesn't sugar coat stuff.
I am even more thankful for my loving and supporting husband. He is being a trooper. I don't know how in the world he puts up with me some days. I don't know what I would do without him <3
Until next time....
This cycle did not work. I am NOT pregnant. Of course I am devastated and filled with many different emotions. However I know that eventually it will happen. Looks like we have more figuring out to do. Thankfully we still have options left. One way or another we will have a family at some point in the future.
I have to go back to my OBGYN to discuss my next cycle and make a plan. Trying is definitely the hardest part. I know I didn't do anything wrong that made the cycle not take, but I still feel responsible some what. It's been a long road and I know we have a long road ahead of us.
I am so thankful that I have a wonderful doctor that doesn't sugar coat stuff.
I am even more thankful for my loving and supporting husband. He is being a trooper. I don't know how in the world he puts up with me some days. I don't know what I would do without him <3
Until next time....
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Dr. Appointment 8/29
So today was a crazy day. I went to the doctor's office twice and had to go to have more labs drawn.
Today, I went in for an ultrasound and to get the hCG shot. The ultra sound was not the most fun thing in the world but I survived :) My uterus is severely tilted in the wrong direction, I have a large follicle that may be too "ripe", have fluid around my ovary, and I have failed to ovulate again!!! The follicle was in normal limits but was on the high side of the scale. We decided to do labs to see if I naturally ovulated to see if I even needed the hCG shot.
The lab worked confirmed what I already knew since I have been doing ovulation test for days now. I once again have not ovulated. Needless to say I needed the hCG shot. So, I went back to the doctor's office again and talked to the doctor, and got my shot. Wow that shot did not hurt but dang it hurts now. Hopefully, I will ovulate within 36-48 hours!! That is the goal. I have to get labs drawn Saturday to see if I ovulated or not. In a few weeks we will obviously know if all are hard work has paid off or not.
Overall the doctor is very happy with how things look!! Even though the doctor is happy I feel like things are still not right. I shouldn't have to go through all of this. Between the Endometriosis, surgery, Lupron, menopause, infertility, fertility treatments, now a retarded uterus(which can cause miscarriage since it's tilted) haven't I suffered enough?!?!? I know life isn't fair but oh my goodness this is horrible! I know things will eventually be okay but I don't know how much more my body can take mentally, emotionally, and physically!!
I hope this treatment works and everything works out for the best. If this cycle of treatment doesn't work then we have to try something else.
Thank you all for your support it is very much appreciated :) Until next time....
Today, I went in for an ultrasound and to get the hCG shot. The ultra sound was not the most fun thing in the world but I survived :) My uterus is severely tilted in the wrong direction, I have a large follicle that may be too "ripe", have fluid around my ovary, and I have failed to ovulate again!!! The follicle was in normal limits but was on the high side of the scale. We decided to do labs to see if I naturally ovulated to see if I even needed the hCG shot.
The lab worked confirmed what I already knew since I have been doing ovulation test for days now. I once again have not ovulated. Needless to say I needed the hCG shot. So, I went back to the doctor's office again and talked to the doctor, and got my shot. Wow that shot did not hurt but dang it hurts now. Hopefully, I will ovulate within 36-48 hours!! That is the goal. I have to get labs drawn Saturday to see if I ovulated or not. In a few weeks we will obviously know if all are hard work has paid off or not.
Overall the doctor is very happy with how things look!! Even though the doctor is happy I feel like things are still not right. I shouldn't have to go through all of this. Between the Endometriosis, surgery, Lupron, menopause, infertility, fertility treatments, now a retarded uterus(which can cause miscarriage since it's tilted) haven't I suffered enough?!?!? I know life isn't fair but oh my goodness this is horrible! I know things will eventually be okay but I don't know how much more my body can take mentally, emotionally, and physically!!
I hope this treatment works and everything works out for the best. If this cycle of treatment doesn't work then we have to try something else.
Thank you all for your support it is very much appreciated :) Until next time....
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Waiting and Not Knowing
Here I am babysitting 2 of the sweetest children I know. A true little Princess and a ver Inspirational little boy that has a wonderful outlook on life. These 2 kids touch my heart in so many ways. All the kids I watch hold a special place in my heart at the end of the day. Children are such a precious gift. We are to teach them the things in life that they need to know. However, kids teach us so much too. It is amazing how much a child can show you when you least expect it. Almost everyday I see a child that bring me joy just like I bring them joy as well. These children are not mine in anyway but I treat them like they are.
I am learning that if all my fertility treatments, shots, etc, don't work that it will be okay. Life will go on one way or another. If my infertility is permanent I will be thankful I am not worse off like some. Everyday brings a new thought, emotion, or physical pain. Endometriosis has really changed my life. I thought having a fatal skin disease(Steven-Johsnons Syndrome) was bad enough. Yeah, I know if it is some odd ball illness it will happen to me. I have always been the person to get odd stuff. I guess being an science experiment was in the cards I was dealt. In the past 3.5 years so much has changed and my life will continue to change. I hope that is only for the better.
On, August 29th I will be doing a hCG shot with the assistance of an ultrasound. The plan is that in 2 weeks 2 days after the injection I will take a sensitive blood pregnancy test. To say I am happy, excited, and hopeful about the thought that we maybe parents one day is an understatement. At the same time I am terrified, nervous, freaked out, stressed, and so many other things it isn't even funny. I have been counting down the days until I get the shot. The "What If's" are taking place in my mind. If this doesn't work I am going to be devastated!! I never expected to be told that I was infertile at 23, I'll need assistance to be pregnant, and that if it doesn't happen with in a year or 2 it may never happen thanks to my Endo. When life throws me lemons , I try to make lemonade out of them but it can be hard to do sometimes.
Waiting around and not knowing what the future holds is the hardest thing. I know I have to be patient but this is taking forever ;) I have waited this long I might as well wait some more until it's my time. That is so much easier said than done!!
My husband has been a great sport about this whole thing. He has been supportive this whole time it's wonderful. I don't give him enough credit at all. So John, if your reading this know how much I love you and that your support is more than I can ask for!! <3 <3 <3 <3 You are the BEST!
Until next time my friends...
I am learning that if all my fertility treatments, shots, etc, don't work that it will be okay. Life will go on one way or another. If my infertility is permanent I will be thankful I am not worse off like some. Everyday brings a new thought, emotion, or physical pain. Endometriosis has really changed my life. I thought having a fatal skin disease(Steven-Johsnons Syndrome) was bad enough. Yeah, I know if it is some odd ball illness it will happen to me. I have always been the person to get odd stuff. I guess being an science experiment was in the cards I was dealt. In the past 3.5 years so much has changed and my life will continue to change. I hope that is only for the better.
On, August 29th I will be doing a hCG shot with the assistance of an ultrasound. The plan is that in 2 weeks 2 days after the injection I will take a sensitive blood pregnancy test. To say I am happy, excited, and hopeful about the thought that we maybe parents one day is an understatement. At the same time I am terrified, nervous, freaked out, stressed, and so many other things it isn't even funny. I have been counting down the days until I get the shot. The "What If's" are taking place in my mind. If this doesn't work I am going to be devastated!! I never expected to be told that I was infertile at 23, I'll need assistance to be pregnant, and that if it doesn't happen with in a year or 2 it may never happen thanks to my Endo. When life throws me lemons , I try to make lemonade out of them but it can be hard to do sometimes.
Waiting around and not knowing what the future holds is the hardest thing. I know I have to be patient but this is taking forever ;) I have waited this long I might as well wait some more until it's my time. That is so much easier said than done!!
My husband has been a great sport about this whole thing. He has been supportive this whole time it's wonderful. I don't give him enough credit at all. So John, if your reading this know how much I love you and that your support is more than I can ask for!! <3 <3 <3 <3 You are the BEST!
Until next time my friends...
Thursday, August 16, 2012
August 16th!
So after a lot of talking and thinking we decided that being put back on birth control isn't the best option. Since my body doesn't ovulate that we should let it start working properly again. Being on birth control can cause issues down the road. On the 14th I went to my gynecologist to discuss our plan of action and where to go from there. We had that all figured out. On the 15th, I went to my PCM who is a little concerned about my TSH(thyroid hormone) was higher than normal at the end of July when the blood was drawn. My Gyno did blood work on Tuesday and my TSH was very normal. So it looks like my TSH is going crazy. I go back in a month to retest it. Blood work still shows I haven't ovulated still. This is just so darn frustrating!!!! I was also diagnosed with Hypoglycemia which I already knew I had. So good news is my Acarbose the doctor put me on is keeping my blood sugar from dropping too low like it usually did.
Last night after I got home from the doctor I started bleeding. I HAVE MY FIRST PERIOD SINCE JANUARY 2011!!!! YAY, finally! I know most people wouldn't be happy but this shows my body is at least trying to function right :) :) I still won't ovulate at this point. However, with medications my body will eventually start working fully. Since I am having a period though it is causing my Endometriosis to bleed so I am having bad pain again. I have to suck it up and let my body adjust to functioning again.
So many of my friends are either getting pregnant or having their babies. It is so exciting but at the same time it hurts. I am very happy for all of them it's just the thought of that may never happen for us. It's harder watching women having abortions left and right when I want to have children but my body isn't doing what it needs to for that to happen. I have a limited time frame to have a baby if that is what we want(which it is) since with every period my Endometriosis bleeds, grows and spreads.
There is a lot going on and so much to do. More testing, appointments, thinking positive, and praying to do. It will get worse before getting better. I have faith that one day it will all work itself out.. Hopefully, sooner rather than later!
I will create a new blog in relation to this one when it is time to share the journey of this horrible mess and hopefully one day pregnancy and motherhood!!
Until next time....PLEASE KEEP US IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS!!! <3
Last night after I got home from the doctor I started bleeding. I HAVE MY FIRST PERIOD SINCE JANUARY 2011!!!! YAY, finally! I know most people wouldn't be happy but this shows my body is at least trying to function right :) :) I still won't ovulate at this point. However, with medications my body will eventually start working fully. Since I am having a period though it is causing my Endometriosis to bleed so I am having bad pain again. I have to suck it up and let my body adjust to functioning again.
So many of my friends are either getting pregnant or having their babies. It is so exciting but at the same time it hurts. I am very happy for all of them it's just the thought of that may never happen for us. It's harder watching women having abortions left and right when I want to have children but my body isn't doing what it needs to for that to happen. I have a limited time frame to have a baby if that is what we want(which it is) since with every period my Endometriosis bleeds, grows and spreads.
There is a lot going on and so much to do. More testing, appointments, thinking positive, and praying to do. It will get worse before getting better. I have faith that one day it will all work itself out.. Hopefully, sooner rather than later!
I will create a new blog in relation to this one when it is time to share the journey of this horrible mess and hopefully one day pregnancy and motherhood!!
Until next time....PLEASE KEEP US IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS!!! <3
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Dr. Appointment 6/8/12
So I went to the gyno on August 1st to get an exam and do blood work. He did a pregnancy text and also check to see if I had ovulated recently. We talked about the Depo shot, Implanon, and how for me my biological clock is backwards. If I wait to long to have a baby it probably won't happen.
Yesterday, August 8th I went back for the results. I am not pregnant and I am NOT ovulating at all as of now. So obviously as of now I can't have children. That may or may not change. Also if I ever want to have a baby I will have take fertility meds and will be consider high risk for multiple reasons. My heart was completely crushed and still is. I was told I have 2 options. One is to be put back on birth control to suppress my hormones even more and potentially never get pregnant. I haven't ovulated since January 2011 since I started birth control in February 2011, then surgery, then Lupron. If I continue birth control it may permanently mess my reproductive system up more than it is. My second option is to start fertility meds to induce ovulation and try to get pregnant within a few months to a year from now. I'd have to see a few specialist because I am at a higher risk of something going wrong.
There is obviously a lot of information to think about. John and I have discussed everything and have our answer. Hopefully the doctor will be able to fix everything :)
Yesterday, August 8th I went back for the results. I am not pregnant and I am NOT ovulating at all as of now. So obviously as of now I can't have children. That may or may not change. Also if I ever want to have a baby I will have take fertility meds and will be consider high risk for multiple reasons. My heart was completely crushed and still is. I was told I have 2 options. One is to be put back on birth control to suppress my hormones even more and potentially never get pregnant. I haven't ovulated since January 2011 since I started birth control in February 2011, then surgery, then Lupron. If I continue birth control it may permanently mess my reproductive system up more than it is. My second option is to start fertility meds to induce ovulation and try to get pregnant within a few months to a year from now. I'd have to see a few specialist because I am at a higher risk of something going wrong.
There is obviously a lot of information to think about. John and I have discussed everything and have our answer. Hopefully the doctor will be able to fix everything :)
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